I have not been writing/updating my blog since October 2007. From the 'incorporation' of my blog since August 2007 (probably), it has been one year. A period which I would say vague, uncertain and imprecise of myself.
Changing from an ACCA grates to a working adults, this transition period neither easy nor happy. Looking back at the path that I have walk through all this while, walking away from the normal cheerful and happy Leonard Sim as before. With the changing environment, I step into a dog eat dog world where people stabbing u from behind, fake and smiles which carries upon blades that bring you to death in the very next moment. Torture you along and dragging you into an uncertain situation. I admit some of it happens to me. With 'CCTV', 'loudspeaker' and 'top salesperson' arounds, you will feel insecure all the moment at work. I have been driven along with the realistic world and become another me. An unreal, fake, forced Nardy.
Last week, I came to a point where I feel that I got no one to believe. I am in situation where I nearly lost myself. Hated and disincline everything which cames through my minds. A week of struggle and sadness, realised and accepted. Solutions and ways have to carried out to help myself out. Yeah. Im stil S&A where I got no one to share my moments and troubles with. No true friends which I fails in the journey of life as at today. :(
Instead of saying out my problem with people, thanks to internet and blogging industry which booms years ago are willing to receive and clean up all my complains and feelings. Now, what I have to do is to enhance my skills and learn to be smarter and serious on my life. I will stand up and stand on those who looks down on me. I have to proof to everyone that Nard is not easily beatable!
Feelings to change this blogs name with the current situation. Inspiration Square?? what have U inspired? Or I should remain positive that one day people or mayb someone will get inspired by me? Wat say you Leonard?
Changing from an ACCA grates to a working adults, this transition period neither easy nor happy. Looking back at the path that I have walk through all this while, walking away from the normal cheerful and happy Leonard Sim as before. With the changing environment, I step into a dog eat dog world where people stabbing u from behind, fake and smiles which carries upon blades that bring you to death in the very next moment. Torture you along and dragging you into an uncertain situation. I admit some of it happens to me. With 'CCTV', 'loudspeaker' and 'top salesperson' arounds, you will feel insecure all the moment at work. I have been driven along with the realistic world and become another me. An unreal, fake, forced Nardy.
Last week, I came to a point where I feel that I got no one to believe. I am in situation where I nearly lost myself. Hated and disincline everything which cames through my minds. A week of struggle and sadness, realised and accepted. Solutions and ways have to carried out to help myself out. Yeah. Im stil S&A where I got no one to share my moments and troubles with. No true friends which I fails in the journey of life as at today. :(
Instead of saying out my problem with people, thanks to internet and blogging industry which booms years ago are willing to receive and clean up all my complains and feelings. Now, what I have to do is to enhance my skills and learn to be smarter and serious on my life. I will stand up and stand on those who looks down on me. I have to proof to everyone that Nard is not easily beatable!
Feelings to change this blogs name with the current situation. Inspiration Square?? what have U inspired? Or I should remain positive that one day people or mayb someone will get inspired by me? Wat say you Leonard?
(leonard @ early July)
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